Listening prayer 5.6-7.20.

Listening prayer 5.6-7.20.

Check list for people to contact. Prayer tool.

List of mentee people to contact.

Places: Jesus was in Mary and Martha’s home multiple times, but that was secondary, a consequence to the relationship.

Books I buy need to be read within 30 days. No more purchase without purpose.

No more FB Corrections. Too much time on Facebook addressing fake news.

THROUGHPUT
PA phoned, visited, meetings, studies

S..R
1 sermon with slides, preached, transcribed, posted, emailed and mailed.
FB Devotions and Promotions

TO
To Do list, organize/equip the saints

ED – making disciples

——————— Friday 5/8/20

What I want in my writing is what my father wanted. My own fan club. Affirmation and attention. Especially from his wife. Tragic.

I also want to interact with people who are interested in ideas and particularly my ideas. To discuss and improve them with well informed peers. I want to understand how Systems work and have fun applying what I am learning.

I want my ideas to be co-dependently helpful to transform and change people’s lives for the better, starting with me. To solve problems and thereby gather affirmation and attention for how helpful, brilliant and beneficial I am. Another word for that is worship. Ego, well fed.

You marry your unfinished business. So obviously I’m going through this myself. I’m still seeking my mother’s love in a strange situation.

At the heart of my resistance to movement forward is the feeling then I will not get a fan club and especially that my wife will not love me more because of what I write. Or to put it another way, my mother will not love me; my drawing will not go up on the fridge.

THIS IS THE RESISTANCE … How do I overcome this?

Chariots of Fire: Liddell responds, “I believe that God made me for a purpose. But He also made me fast, and when I run, I feel His pleasure.”


I Feel God’s Pleasure When I… March 17, 2014 By Eric Geiger https://ericgeiger.com/2014/03/i-feel-gods-pleasure-when-i-blank/

In the movie you see a clear contrast between Liddell and Abrahams. They both run. But they run for very different reasons.

In one scene Abrahams says, “And now in one hour’s time I will be out there again. I will raise my eyes and look down that corridor, 4 feet wide, with 10 lonely seconds to justify my whole existence. But will I?”

In a different scene Liddell says, “I believe God made me for a purpose, but He also made me fast. And when I run, I feel His pleasure.”

Tim Keller, in comparing the two runners as depicted in the movie, states: “Harold Abrahams was weary even when he rested, and Eric Liddell was rested even when he was exerting himself. Why? Because there’s a work underneath our work that we really need rest from. It’s the work of self-justification.” *

Abrahams seeks satisfaction and joy in the race, and it always eludes him. Liddell finds satisfaction in Christ and experiences His joy as he runs.